I can hardly believe en entire year has gone by since Nick and I first met. Time seemed to fly ever so fast in 2011… It was a good year, full of learning, some great ideas, and good opportunities. But photographically speaking, I did nothing spectacular, except perhaps this trip to Paris, and maybe this video with Kriti. I’m not even sure what spectacular stuff I expected to do with my shiny new SLR. Sell photographs for profit? Document events? Exhibit my photographs in a gallery? I bought my camera simply to satisfy a personal need—an urge to improve upon, ugh, yes, my “hobby”.
Strange that I still haven’t found a word to describe my photography. Is it a hobby? Passion? Art? Form of expression? Necessity? The air that I breathe?
One of the breakthrough moments came last year as I listened to a fellow drone on about his (rather boring) life. All I could think of was how I would have liked nothing better than my camera (sadly left behind at home) between the two of us.
I’m not sure which is it… Is my camera a barrier—a protection between me and the world? Or is it a window, or a medium of understanding everything I don’t?
I’m becoming aware of my “craving” to have my camera with me—in stressful situations, interesting situations, intriguing situations, or simply when I’ve been away from it for too long. With the SLR, yes there are some constraints that bother me—like the inability to carry the rather bulky camera with me all the time, and it’s hard to revert to a point and shoot once you’ve held a dSLR; the minor issue with the incompatibility of burst and timer modes; other small things…but the biggest is the nagging doubt—will I ever be able to use it to its full potential?
I can only hope to find the answers to some of these questions in the months and years to come. Frankly, I’m not in hurry. With my typical luck, journeys turn out to be more interesting than the destination. And hopefully this journey will be long and rewarding, and why wouldn’t it be, when I have Nick by my side? :)